Sunday, May 1, 2011

Where to begin....

I'm gonna start with a list and work from there:
Oldest's brigade has lost 4 soldiers and 3 wounded, one happens to be a friend
Youngest's Prom was this past weekend
My brother moved in with us
My Middle has found out he will be deploying
Actively fundraising for Relay for Life
Actively fundraising for Adopt a Soldier
Still out of work
My father has become more and more forgetful and miserable
Youngest not going to school and grades are less than desirable

Our oldest son is currently deployed to Afghanistan.  His brigade has lost soldiers and seen 3 wounded in just a months time.  They had their first memorial service on Easter Sunday.  Needless to say we did not get a phone call home.  He has a very difficult time keeping control of his emotions and I knew he wouldn't be able to keep things in check.  My heart is breaking and been saying lots of prayers.  His job keeps him safe for the time being but you just never know what is going to happen.
Youngest son's prom was this weekend.  Very proud and excited for him.  We paid most of the costs for his girlfriends dress and fixings.  They looked amazing together.  I am glad it's done, the stress of getting everything together is incredible.
My youngest brother is currently seperated from his wife who moved in with another man.  He has decided to move back into my parents home which is also where my husband, youngest and I live.  The toughest part of the transition was clearing the room of the live in companion my parents had with them for over 15 years who passed away a year ago.  It was truly emotional and overwhelming.
My middle son found out he will be deploying in 10 months...that is a month before our oldest is to return home and a month after his first child is due!  Ughhhhhh!  Military life is like being on the wildest roller coaster ever and you just want to get off!!
I am pretty much the organizer of two fundraisers my family and friends partake in that are very dear to our hearts.  One is for cancer support and the other is to support our troops.  Both are extremely time consuming and just a week apart! 
I am still out of work.  Actually talked to work about coming back on reduced schedule for a bit and talked to doctor.  She didn't see it as well as I did so for now I continue out.  Kind of okay and kind of not.  Still trying to focus on getting anxiety under control and taking care of me!!
Caring for my father has become more difficult.  Some of it is him but most of it is my mother's inabililty to control her emotions when he gets himself going.  It is truly frustrating.  They don't seem capable of doing anything without our assistance. 
We've had a horrible two weeks with our youngest.  Not going to school regularly.  Basically doing what he wants.  Never coming home.  Grades are weak.  Not doing anything to help us or that he is asked to do.  So afraid he is going to fail.  He is 19 yrs old and junior in high school.  If he doesn't pull it together soon he will not be able to graduate high school!  Very disheartening!!
Needless to say I have had a little bit of stress.  I have been going to the gym regularly to work out and tanning.  Lost 7.2 in two weeks through Weight Watchers and excercise.  Need to start eating a bit better but feeling great overall!!
Remember to take time to take care of you!!

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