I am soooo frustrated, angry, mad, pissed....UGHHHH!!
If they don't work out a federal budget they will be cutting the pay of our troops! This totally enrages me. My son is off fighting a war that we do NOT need to be fighting!! He has left his wife and 3 yr old son. He left with many worries...supporting his family was NOT one of them and should NOT be!! How can you decide to send people to fight a war and decide you are NOT going to pay them for doing their job!! Absolutely ridiculous! Our country has become a complete and udder mess...an embarrassment...we have the strongest armed forces in the world and they are truly treated the worst!!
Now on to the next infurating issue...after 14 yrs my brother decided to marry his high school sweatheart...after just one year of marriage..SHE decided that wasn't what she wanted after all!! This to me was just utter nonsense..when you commit to marriage...it's for better or worse, richer or poorer, better or worse!! They have been struggling for months. Together, not together...u get it! Now she moved out of my brothers and in with a man and took their kids. First of all...how do you move out of the home of your husband and in with a new man?!! Now this "other" man just happens to be a millionare..not because he worked hard but because he won a lawsuit. She is a gold-digging, money hungry, selfish, snotty bitch! I know that one day Karma will come to bite her in the ass but right now I just want to ring her neck. Today my niece posts on FB that she is going to Vegas for the weekend with her mom and boyfriend! Next week they head off to Myrtle Beach! While my brother falls apart, is suicidal, is a mental and physical wreck his family is off having the time of their lives! I am soooo mad...I truly am sickened by the whole thing. I am at a complete loss on how to help him cope with all of this!! He takes all the blame...is certain he will never be truly happy. It breaks my heart!!
Now on to the struggles of going through our soldiers deployment. Each day is a new struggle. I am currently staying at my sons for a visit..had a break in my calendar and figured I could help. I know my dil struggles in her own way and sometimes she just needs me there to help her through the rough times! Since I have been here she has been working crazy hours. It upsets me up a little that she hasn't adjusted her schedule or made any concessions to be home with grandson. His Dad is gone and now pretty much his Mom is gone. He is too damn cute and comes out with the darndest things. When I mentioned to her today that hours were too much she pretty much bit my head off. I know she is struggling and she just doesn't know what to do. I know being home alone is difficult for her. But there is a 3 yr old that does not understand what is happening. I know she will work this out, she is strong and is a great Mom...right now it is a struggle.
Today youngest son had a major anxiety attack in school. I am someone who suffers from severe anxiety so I know what he is going through. I know he is struggling with his brothers deployment and my being here and not there. It scares me that he is having such attacks at such a young age. I do not want him to struggle as I do. I need to find guidance and help to be able to help him!!
Another day in my crazy life!!
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