Weight Loss!

Soooo, on to a new struggle.  My weight.  I LOVE the show Ruby.  What a wake up call!  I hear her excuses and I hear myself. 
I am not eating horrible, I am sort of active.  BULL!  I am a stress eater.  I don't get as much exercise as a senior citizen! 
I need to get my ass moving.  I need to get control of my food. 
Been at my sons for a week.  My 3 yr old grandson has run me ragged.  I am only 40 yrs old...I should be more than able to keep up.
I see pictures of myself and I cringe.  I can NOT believe that I weigh 250lbs.  How did this happen??  At 175lbs I thought I was good looking, at 200 lbs I was active and didn't let it affect me.  Now there is no denying I am obese. 
I have noone to blame but myself. 
I'm the one driving when I hit the drive-thru, I am the one choosing what I eat, I am the one getting up at 11pm to get a SNACK, I am the one not making an effort to take time for me.
I've done Weight Watchers and lost 49.5 lbs...I can't even say 50 lbs cause I could never get myself over that hump.  Instead the scale kept going up and up.  I hear people talk about self-sabotage..I know that's where I was. 
My embarrassing fat moments....trying to get on a ride at Universal Studios they made me get in a test seat, trying on clothes, avoiding people that once knew me because I am embarrassed by my size and then to worry if I can fit into rides, worry if I can fit in a certain booth, think about how I would survive in an emergency...could I catch my grandson if he ran ahead of me and into the road?  Could I pull myself back into a boat if it tipped over? 
Sooo...here is my goal...
To get to some sort of exercise class at least twice a week
Walk everyday
Drink water everyday
....it's a start! 
Stay tuned for updates!!